“The Malfunctioning Mammal” PTSD – PART 2

Happiness-Is-the-Key-to-Life-Quote  Current research into early trauma origins reveals that untreated trauma inhibits the capacity of the nervous system to function appropriately and also significantly alters brain chemistry. The inquire I have is how does cultured trauma effect the need for stimulation,  productivity, and connection.

 Is it possible that our daily drive for stimulation, productivity, and connections are maintained by the  many unseen hungry ghosts,  the un-integrated ‘sensory’ nervous system within ourselves?

From my observation and experience; all education and skill training that are not directly nurturing our innate aptitudes and skills  turns us into instruments of a global toxic culture. We all have cultured blind-spots of stickiness. These blind-spots are visible through our cultured symptomatic behavior as we have lost a clear and practical understanding of what natural productivity and real depth of connection is.

classHow can we best, individually and collectively,  begin to examine what  is healthy  nurture natural productivity, and natural relations?  Creativity and collaboration are innate to us, but these qualities are rushed and co-opted by the economic models of development and action. Today we seek to prove our wholeness, dignity, and value by self policing to measured productivity whilst not understanding the many cultured reasons our drive and craving for more consumption.

Our epidemic lack of understanding of the above have us live only on the surface of our lives  through unseen  and habituated thoughts and emotions. We are easily manipulated by our fear through the structured competition for our survival. We go to war against ourselves and each others to prove our worth and value and as we clamour for recognition and to be safe. We are sadly suspicious of each other as we feel threatened by what we do not know.

What are the true cost of these un-examined mechanisms within ourselves that makes us so attached to build profit and property before people and before connections. How can we begin to rediscover, trust, create, and collaborate from the natural movements in our lives, and then to shift the discourse of “productivity” to fullness.

The very assumption  that fiscal sensibilities and GNP, gross national production, on a global scale is a real and valid measure of achievement, progress, and success, is evidence of the collective ‘un-examined life.’  Our greatest majority is still unable to recognize that the current  daily productivity are the very cause of our demise.  The many lauded and sought after cultured ideals, supported and substantiated by media,  motivates and  maintains the economic drive and reckless economic entitlement to resources and consumption. How do we  begin to acknowledge that our cultured ideals are flawed and false, and to begin to understand how we can reclaim, restitute, and restore, the commitment to full sensory integration that were co-opted by early life trauma and generational cultured ideals.

We have yet to understand , individually and collectively, that productivity should be geared toward building people and communities, as we are intimately connected and reliant on complex ecological life systems. All creatures are inherently equipped for life, but humans are the one species that is doubting the natural movement and  sensory feedback system within themselves.

Does your vision board obstruct you from attuning to your natural movement innate as your daily  purpose?

Does your vision board and schedule obstruct you from attuning, discovering, and trusting your innate holistic and sustainable movements and aptitudes?

Today we have created fixed  schedules, *structures and functions*, around every thing within ourselves we have yet to discover and do not trust.  We have vision boards, check lists,  schedules, and various practices we tick off and we believe ourselves to have done good.  We have very little courage or movement to listen to our own dissonance as long as we can put a check mark on our list and think ourselves accomplished.

A large part of our problem at the moment is that we are directing our attention to governance and corporations blaming and shaming them that they are not doing their job. You and I, in our cultured productivity, is the instruments of the  economic engine that is running out of control and threatens not only our society, but our ecological niche.

IN-NATE.

  1. inborn; natural.
    “her innate capacity for organization”

Please support the very essential indigo project by Charles Shaw so we collectively can begin to address the core traumas that maintains our misconception of the economic necessity for growth. We have been generationally co-opted to believe that economic growth signifies safety but it is a false delusion of safety. Much LUV, n

 

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“The Malfunctioning Mammal” PTSD – At Home in the Dark

 

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WE ARE GOOD AT MAKING ‘THINGS’, AND AS WE REALIZE OUR INNATE WHOLENESS, WE WILL BEGIN TO EXPERIENCE THE MANY SATIATED CONNECTIONS.

There is an UNSEEN GIFT in PTSD that often goes unnoticed. I discovered this gift when I began to pay attention to an energy within myself… that was frightening and that I had labelled the unbearable pit of sadness and grief.

There are often wastelands of horror inside we dare not visit alone, as we have been traumatized by the experience of deprivation and early violence.

We become hungry ghosts fueled by deep hurt as violence and neglect have informed us with fear and distrust. A distrust further expanded as we sought for a sacred circle of trust to uncover our wounds, but every circle of trust we thought we found were flawed as we observed that sympathy digressed into pity and disdain.

We discovered that in the economic paradigm there was no one to provide the refuge we sorely desired, as everyone we encountered presumed a familiar sameness and projected their own assumptions as they needed to serve their own uneasiness that covered their own unseen pain.

Our for profit culture have replaced deeper sensory wisdom for words that we call knowledge and healing paradigms. Our intimacy with one another has been replaced by loops of programmed language and empty solutions.

Dr. Benjamin Fry observation is excellent:  Research into trauma origins reveals that untreated trauma inhibits the capacity of the nervous system to function appropriately and also significantly alters brain chemistry. Untreated trauma is the cause of many common mental health and behavioral disorders, and can lead to addictions.

Attachment is related to trauma. Early attachments are vital to our development. A child’s basic need for safety, nurturing, emotional, physical and psychological care and support is paramount for her or his optimum development.

For over twenty years plus I studied and engaged multiple scientific and spiritual healing modalities to address the inner dissonance (grief, sadness, anger and bouts with depression) to have a clear and coherent framework  for my own PTSD, and to finally feel and think myself a  whole, free, and valued being.  

I had great difficulty getting a clear view of what was always here, so direct and immediately available to fully arrive.   The early trauma blocked the essential  sensory integration and formed the veil that obstructed a clear seeing of the earth as a satiated paradise and the wholeness already inherent to all life.

My awareness disassociated  from receiving the whole  sensory embodiment, a reactive ‘self” protection mechanism.   This ‘self’ mechanism obstructed the process of integration, as the framework I worked with was flawed. I had come to believe I needed to understand the context and content for the PTSD to be able to heal. My meaning making and analyzing  prevented me from seeing the very immediate and direct opportunity for re-integration.

The Point Process evolved out of all my searching for solutions as a simple and practical breath and release vehicle for integration.  The darkness was recognized as relentless buckets of unprocessed grief, hurt, and sadness that was my opportune feedback to fully receive a satiated and self directed life.

May we all find our way to reclaim, restitute and restore the innate wholeness, dignity, and value we abdicated for an economic paradigm through colonizing our consciousness.

IN-NATE.

  1. inborn; natural.
    “her innate capacity for organization”

Please support the very essential indigo project by Charles Shaw so we collectively can begin to address the core traumas that maintains our misconception of the economic necessity for growth. We have been generationally co-opted to believe that economic growth signifies safety but it is a false delusion of safety. Much LUV, n

AT HOME IN THE DARK